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What i really wan?
Recently, in a blur case
everytime started to figuring out
who am i actually ?~
what do i want ?~
who needs me in this world ?~

This question comes with no answers...
I started to lose confidence towards myself ..

Today's "me" is not the "me" in the past
from optimistic and joyful turns to sorrow and pain
with thousand of questions in my mind
thanks to the realistic world that changed me
and thanks to all the experiences in my life

Used to have lots of friends around me,
when looks back at the testimonials wrote by them...
and the photo album..
lots of joy and fun...
comes with plenty of sweet memories...
really thanks to u guys a lot...
having u all as my fren is my honour and proud,
but those, is just a memory in the depth of my mind now...
the sweet memory is starting to fade away...

Mayb i should let it off,
that something i cant hold any longer,
if keep it on to hold it, i am onli suffering myself.
Started to feel that my relationship
with all my friends around me is worsen...

not because of them...
is because...
mayb i am the 1 who should be blamed...
in front of everyone i'm having a big smile,
but wat is behind the big smile ?
a smile tat makes all my fren happy?
while myself is suffering in the depth of my heart?
no body knows tat. so do i ~
sigh.
im a faker. im fake. i felt dat im realli fake.. ~